It’s 8.30 and madam is asleep. Thanks Babywise. She was 2 months yesterday and almost sleeping through. She wakes up once anytime between 2 and 4 and then sleeps through again until 7 or 8 most mornings. Going to bed is a bit of a different story. The book told me “to put baby down when she is drowsy, not asleep.”
Yesssssssssss – Kyra probably didn’t read that part. I tried, but no sooner have I left the room than she is calling, “Mummy, where are you? Think you better come back please” and Mummy obliges cos thats what Mummies do. Kyra only likes to go to sleep lying on my chest and then I get up and tip toe to the cot and put her down head first (another book, which Kyra also didn’t read, says that way they don’t wake) and hope for the best. This process can take anywhere up to an hour and a half, so that is how I spend my evenings these days. But it is a small price to pay for a good night’s sleep. The only problem is who is going to do this on Thursday night when I desperately want to go to book club? I love the fact that my little one feels so safe and warm on my chest, but I have created a little bit of a situation for myself.
When she wakes to feed in the early hours, I learnt a fab new trick. I put her in the bed with me and pull her close to my chest and she gets on with her feeding while I go back to sleep. I have no idea how much and for how long she drinks, but I do know she won’t hesitate in waking me if she needs something.
Sadly, I am back at work full time as from 2 weeks ago. My situation at the office changed and I HAVE to work. I am so so so so so disapointed. You carry a baby for nine months and then you give birth (or you lie still and get sliced up) and I reckon the least you deserve for your efforts is 3 months off with your baby to drink coffee with friends, go shopping and showing baby off and to just enjoy the special special time with this little creature. I feel quite robbed and am finding it very hard. She stays with Petronilla 3 days a week now and then with her Granny or Aunty Lyn for 2 and with Pet again on Saturdays if I have to go in. Things will calm down soon when all the suppliers close and I can be back with her but right now that is just the way it is. I miss her so much and have no idea how moms do it when their babies are 3 months old. I am hoping in January to work half day and be with her. My plan was to have been off until Jan and then go back half day so maybe I can still pull that off. My precious little thing – life just doesn’t go according to plan does it. Imagine if she looks at Pet one day and says “Mom”. With Declan, I spent just about every waking moment with him so it is bizarre for me to be away, but I suppose this is the life of a normal mom with a healthy child so I should just count my blessings.
She had her vaccinations last week and weigh-in. She is 5kgs on the dot, much heavier than Declan was at this age. I was in such turmoil about these jolly vaccinations. Lots of moms aren’t doing it and I don’t quite understand the reasoning but I just did not have the time to research all the pros and cons so I just did it. I hope I have done the right thing. When I heard the list of horrid diseases she could get without the vaccinations, I personally felt I had to do it. Some of them are deadly and I can’t take any chances. And I am not saying moms who don’t do them are being irresponsible because I didn’t research it. Maybe I am irresponsible for having done it. I just don’t know. It is so nerve wracking making these decisions and there are so many opinions on every subject and in some ways I wish we could just get on with things without feeling guilty about whether we are doing the right thing or not. With Declan my life was all consumed with cancer and chemotherapy drugs and the day to day decisions seemed minor compared to the types of decisions we had to make with him. It is all quite new to me now, this day to day business and looking after my baby without always having a family member present and bouncing decisions off of lots of people.
Well done and THANK YOU to everyone who cycled 94.7 for the charity. Sam Cowan interviewed Kim who was cycling in the charity gear which was great exposure. We are still working hard at raising funds for the medical bills of children with cancer and are still looking for runners to run Two Oceans for the charity, so mail me on info@allhandsondecfriends.org if you can help in any way. I will post some pics of Kyra taking her bath on her 2 month birthday later this week.
Lots of love
Gillian
PS Happy Birthday Daryl my love for turning 40 on the 21st – you don’t look a day over 39.
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